Have you ever longed to feel a touch from God? Just one touch? Or have you been doubting God’s love for you lately? Do you feel you’ve had too many failures to be able to truly be loved by Him again in the deep way you’re craving for?
Well, my dear friends, you are not alone. These past few weeks I have felt like a total failure.
I wasn’t trusting God. And so the devil was ruling my life in many ways. I wasn’t believing He was enough. I wasn’t believing He was the happiest and safest and most wonderful place to be. I wasn’t totally submitting to Him completely, so I wasn’t able to cooperate with Him in resisting the devil.
“Submit yourselves therefore to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you.” James 4:7
I was letting the devil turn my world upside down–which resulted in the opposite of the abundant life Jesus offers.
“The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy. I came that they may have life and have it abundantly.” John 10:10
God had hit me at my weakest point and was asking me, “Child, can you trust Me with this?”
And then I grew weaker and weaker until it felt hopeless to ever return to My first love. To trust Him completely again like a small child. I was a failure. But God saw things differently. He encouraged me to keep fighting, to believe He was enough and so much more than I could imagine.
Soon (or finally!) I began to trust in His loving gaze. That He didn’t look down at Me with scorn. That He was enough and I could let go of the thing I was clinging onto foolishly.
And so, I let it go. I let it go, and I looked up. Up to Him. I trusted that, somehow, He saw me as precious and holy and beautiful, because of the blood of Jesus that washes over every stain and makes you new again.
He told me again and again how He had been with me that whole time, and how He was always reaching out His hand to me if only I trusted Him. If only I really, truly believed.
The happiest place to be is with Jesus. And I don’t just say that to say that, but because I’ve tasted and seen it is true. He is good.
“Oh, taste and see that the Lord is good! Blessed is the man who takes refuge in him!” Psalm 34:8
Nothing- not money, not a relationship, not a job, not sex, not pornography, not masturbation, not technology, not academics, not video games, not the best tasting food- can satisfy you like He does.
It is the deepest joy to realize His great delight in you. To listen to His sweet words, To feel His gaze on you. His eyes full of love. Never looking away. Always watching. Always waiting. Always yearning for you to just, for one moment, lift your gaze to Him.
His presence doesn’t come to those hoarding up idols for themselves. God asks you to first give up whatever you’ve been clinging onto to satisfy, and then once you’ve emptied yourself, you are able to dive deep into His presence, hungering and thirsting after Him like choice food and the best of drinks.
“Jesus said to them, ‘I am the bread of life; whoever comes to me shall not hunger, and whoever believes in me shall never thirst.'” John 6:35
Come to Him, Beloved! And don’t let anything hinder you from feasting on His sweet presence which alone can truly satisfy your soul.
Ask Him to show you what you’ve been hoarding up in your heart, and then let Him pry your fingers open and take it away from you.
As Corrie Ten Boom said, “Whatever you treasure in life, hold it very loosely, so it doesn’t hurt when God has to pry your fingers open to take it away.”
Don’t make it difficult for Him, as it was in my case.
Choose Him now, so you won’t bear the consequences of your actions and the beating of the devil. Choose to believe that He wants nothing but the best, sweetest, and most abundantly blessed life for you.
Have you ever sat for hours in His presence and let Him woo your heart? Dear heart, it is the most pleasurable thing in the world. And God does, indeed, desire that in making you pure, whiter than snow, and set apart for Him, you become unbelievably happy.
It really is true, as Psalm 16:11 says, that in His presence is “fullness of joy.” I just watched an incredible Christian movie that was so convicting, powerful, and thought-provoking. It was about how movies and television have put American Christianity in grave danger called The Power of the Air (You should go watch it here!). The main character exclaims to his friend at one point, “If in His presence is fullness of joy, then why aren’t we spending time with Jesus 24/7!?”
Wow. Why aren’t we? God’s presence truly is the happiest place to be, and it is made completely available to all who have truly repented and trusted alone in Jesus to save them from the devil’s way of living. He is your Father, Savior and friend. He is the fulfiller of dreams and the healer of hearts and the most intimate Lover of your soul. He loves you and yearns for you to spend time with Him.
Just like Jerusalem, the Lord longs for you to come to Him to find safety:
“How often would I have gathered your children together as a hen gathers her brood under her wings, and you were not willing!” Matthew 23:37b
In contrast, when we come to Him, who has been waiting for us all along, we are richly rewarded:
“The Lord your God is in your midst, a mighty one who will save; he will rejoice over you with gladness; he will quiet you by his love; he will exult over you with loud singing.” Zephaniah 3:17
Have you come to Him lately? Will you look up into His loving face, dear heart? Whether you realize it or not, He is looking down on you not with scorn, but with favor and love. Have you confessed your sin, turning away from your sin and choosing God’s way?
Then stop beating yourself up.
The Father has cleansed you and purified you from all unrighteousness (1 John 1:9). As He told me one time, He has unrestrained delight in who you are. He doesn’t hold back how much He adores you, we just don’t have the faith to believe it could be true.
So, Beloved, take heart. Just be with Him today, listen to His whispers of love, and rest in His tender gaze.
“The eyes of the Lord are toward the righteous and his ears toward their cry.” Psalm 34:15
“Are not five sparrows sold for two pennies? And not one of them is forgotten before God. Why, even the hairs of your head are all numbered. Fear not; you are of more value than many sparrows.” Luke 12:6-7