My name is Grace, but I don’t know what grace is all about. For most of my life, I thought it was a nice gift–not a gift I didn’t deserve or a gift I desperately needed. I thought grace might be the cherry on top or the extra breath in the middle of a marathon of swimming. I thought grace might be necessary, but probably not the only thing I needed.
I added to grace. Jesus Christ died for me, justifying me and covering all my sin, shame, and guilt with His blood. But I wasn’t enough. He wasn’t enough. His grace wasn’t sufficient for me.
I donated to charity, I volunteered, I burdened and pressured myself to tell others about Jesus when I didn’t really know Him very well myself. I didn’t have deep fellowship with Him. I wasn’t sure if He truly loved me, or if it was all a facade.
I can’t really say one day everything changed for me. It was many days, step by step, hearing about God’s grace in new ways from new friends who had deep fellowship with Him in ways I’d never dreamed was possible.
Those days brought a blazing light into the darkness of the lies I’d been believing. I became a child again. Free. I understood the gospel like never before. Jesus Christ died for me, and there was nothing I could do to add or subtract to that. God’s grace to me was exactly what I had never fully hoped for: unmerited favor that I don’t deserve, but I desperately need.
And the truth is, God’s love isn’t something He musters out from Himself so we will love Him in return. It is something that flows freely from Himself, endless and unconditional. His love does not depend on us, but depends on His character which is Love itself.
His grace fuels me to love God, to serve Him, to follow Him. His love encourages me to have deep fellowship with Him. His conviction causes me to hate my sin, to turn from it, and sink deeper everyday into the security of His love.
I write this blog because God’s grace abounds in my life, and I want it to abound in yours, too. I write this blog because writing out the truth challenges me to believe it more for myself. I write this blog because perfectionists, performers, overachievers, the anxiety-riddled, the sensitive, the insecure, and other people out there like me need to stop thinking they have enough works for God, and start believing Jesus’ work on the cross was, and always will be, completely and absolutely enough.
I write this blog because God’s grace isn’t just necessary, it is everything I need.
“And God is able to make all grace abound to you, so that having all sufficiency in all things at all times, you may abound in every good work.” 2 Corinthians 9:8 (ESV)
May God’s grace abound in your life,
“Your grace abounds in deepest waters/Your Sovereign hand, will be my guide
Where feet may fail and fear surrounds me/You’ve never failed
And You won’t stop now.” – Oceans, by Hillsong UNITED
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